Friday, October 25, 2013

See Him Grow

My Little One is a year old. It's hard to believe this time a year ago, he was fighting for his life and we were unsure of what complications he would face.

The pictures below show how much he has changed. From my incubator baby to my off and crawling little boy.

In love and light

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

Birthday Boy

Happy birthday to my amazing, sweet, miracle boy! We made it to one, I can't wait to see what this year holds for us.

(I'll be doing another birthday post of our home celebration and his party. Stay tuned! )

In love and light

Friday, October 18, 2013

Please Don't Label My Child

This past week I had a conversation with a stranger that went something like this:

Stranger: What a cute baby! (reaches to touch him)
(Little One pulls away)
Oh, I see he's shy, poor thing.

No, my son is not shy. He's one and you are a stranger. In fact, everyone in this world is strange to him. He doesn't know what social graces are or how to put on a front. He's going to be perfectly honest and snuggle into Mommy because that's what makes him comfortable.

So please, don't label my child. Don't tell him who he is before he gets a chance to decide. He's only one and has a lot of life to live, a long time to learn and discover who and what he likes.

And honestly, as far as babies go, just be thankful he didn't scream the moment you got near ;)

In love and light

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

A Special Month

This month is very special to me, not only is it my Little One's birth month, it is also Loss of Child and Preemie month.

Before Little One was born, I had a little boy born 8 weeks premature. He had some complications but was able to come home for a few months before tragically passing away from SIDS.

Little One was born four and a half years later in the same hospital. Although he was 10 weeks early, he was completely healthy. He was 3 pounds 9 ounces at birth (my older boy was 3 pounds 3 ounces), breathing on his own and spent only 29 says in the Neonatal ICU (typically premature babies stay until they reach gestational maturity which would have been another 6 to 8 weeks for us).

I cannot help but be thankful for both of my boys. Although my older, Angel Boy, is no longer with me, I hold him in my heart and think of him daily. The lessons I have learned from both boys have been tremendous. Knowing now that there are very dark moments in life, I also know that one day you wake up and the day is a bit brighter. Every day gets better.

I have faced challenges with both boys and life situations following having them, but you could offer me all the money on the world and I wouldn't trade being a mama.

I love my preemie boys

In love and light

The first three pictures are of Angel Boy, the others are Little One

Saturday, October 12, 2013

The Secret

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=zpp7SPSkkgU

Enjoy!

In love and light

Gratitude

What are you thankful for?

How often do you think of the things that you are glad you have, rather than bemoan the things you don't?

When you focus on what you're thankful for your mind releases endorphins and energy that attracts positivity to you. The more you focus on how you don't have what you want, the further you get from it. This is why many people (myself included) build dream boards.

Everyday I look at pictures of the beautiful house, yard, and cars that someday I will have. I think about the wonderful man that will someday be my partner and the amazing child Little One will grow up to be. Every night before I go to bed, I write in a goal journal and fall sleep listening to a documentary called "The Secret".

The law of attraction surrounds us and is at work every day. Instead of focusing on the "can'ts" of life, focus on the abundance and prosperity. If you change your thoughts you will change your life situation. Wealth, health, life, is a mindset. Money is not the only thing that makes wealth either (please remember this) just like going to church does not make you spiritual or eating an apple make you healthy.
We are creators. What we think affects our emotions, affects our life, affects our relationships. Decide what you want and make it your focus. When you truly want it, you will find a way to make it happen. Life will open doors.

So do you believe in the law of attraction? Do you think it works? Think about your daily attitude, what are you attracting?

What am I thankful for?
My health
My beautiful son
My parents
My brother
My supportive family
My amazing team
The yummy food I'm learning to make
My son's wonderful paternal family
The autumn weather
Staying home

Challenge: for the next thirty days, write down one thing each day you are thankful for. At the end, you'll be amazed with how rich you are.

In love and light

I highly recommended you check out "The Secret" and if you'd like more information about what I'm doing to change my life, stay home and create a better future, send me an email at shabbychicwaldorfmama@gmail.com


Friday, October 11, 2013

Slowing Down

This last week has been full. Little One had developmental assessments, we had lunches, meetings, court and playgroups to go to. The constant go go go has been exhausting for me and hard on Little One. As I'm writing, the poor boy is laying in my lap. He's been here almost all day, napping, running a low grade fever.

So today we stayed home.

I strongly believe that home is where children belong. However, as a single mom, this can be difficult to achieve. I am determined to adjust our time outside the home and strike a better balance in our lives.

Frankly, aside from grocery shopping and court events, there are very few reasons we HAVE to leave the house. Playgroups are lovely, but if we're being honest, they're really for the moms. The same feel can be achieved by hosting a "mom's tea". I'm working on find other children to babysit regularly so Little One will have playmates at home, and his therapists have recommended him for a home program. Like I've said in a previous post, it's about priorities. When it's important to you, you'll make it happen.

So this weekend, we're taking it easy. We're organizing bedrooms and Little One is getting his own playroom! (His playroom is currently a corner in the living room but now that he's mobile I think he'd like more space). Next week, we'll be staying home as much as possible. We'll be baking and making decorations for his upcoming birthday. I'll be felting, painting and sewing, mostly scrambling to finish up birthday presents.

Stay tuned, you won't want to miss Little One's first birthday :)

In love and light

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

Setting Priorities

About a year ago, I made the decision that, no matter what, when my son was born, I was going to stay home with him. I had a few reasons I wanted to do this. I was determined to nurse him, working full time would have made this difficult. I wanted to cloth diaper, most daycares will not support this. But most of all, I wanted to support my child's emotional needs.

When my son's father and I separated I was faced with a very difficult situation. I had savings, but not enough to last long. How was I going to stay home?

At that moment I realized how important my son really is to me. I didn't have him to pass him off for someone else to raise. So I took my savings and bought a used car, I negotiated with my parents to rent a home they own for less if I do renovations, and I looked into options to working from home.

My son is the most important thing in my life. His emotional well being rates far above my material wants. His health comes just after, we eat clean and organic. He's had one cold in the year he's been alive. Living within my means is my last "top three" priority. Right now, that means I have to be a little creative, but the skills I'm learning now will help me to better manage my money when I have more. That had always been a frustration of mine, so many people don't realize how much they spend on a daily basis. I know where every penny goes.

Whether we acknowledge it, or not, we all have priorities that we are working for. Not everyone wants to be a stay at home mom like I do. But if you want something enough, you'll do anything to make it happen.

In love and light,

Audrey

Saturday, October 5, 2013

Nature Boy

My sweet little redhead is not very fond of having nature touch him. We try to play outside every day and as you can see, his reaction is amusing.I'm certain it's a texture thing, he has a similar reaction to pureed foods, and that he'll get used to the sensation. In the meantime, this mama is enjoying his hesitant exploration!

In love and light

Friday, October 4, 2013

Celebrating Autumn

Little One and I have spent the last week redecorating the house for autumn.

I love having real flowers and other plants inside as much as possible. There's something about seeing them first thing in the morning that makes me feel at peace.

All of my other decorations have come from the dollar store. Little One loved helping me twist the garlands and fill the bucket.

With each season I make sure to create a new basket for Little One. This time we have some fabric leaves, pumpkins and gourds, acorns, and pine cones.

Enjoy the lovely autumn

In love and light